Peace

Sacrament meeting was so great yesterday. The theme was the peace that the gospel brings. It was interesting to me that all 4 speakers (including the youth speakers) know lifes trials. The real ones. None of them really used their trials, but spoke instead straight from the scriptures and church leaders. It was obvious though that they really knew what they were talking about. That they knew the gospel brought them peace.
Sister Roberts talked about the different kinds of peace. and how peace of heart is what the gospel brings. It is so true. We can be missing peace around us and even peace of mind, but have the peace of heart that comes from knowing that Savior lives. That the atonement is there for us. How sweet is that. I know that as life has happened to us, I have discovered that peace. Not totally. But I am working on it. I am trying to learn to trust and listen, and have faith in the plan that Heavenly Father has for us. I am so not good at waiting. Never have been. But I am better. I used to not even be able to wait for Christmas presents. You know now I can. But I still want to know the future. I want to plan and control it. So it is hard for me to trust. To have faith that Heavenly Father knows and that is all that matters. I have developed it a little. Trust, Peace, Faith... But need to develop more. So tomorrow I will work hard and do what is right. but not worry about the future.

Not hopeless

So many times I set a goal. make a plan. or decide to change. only to have it all go out the window by 9 am. Whether it is to not yell, or get the bills paid, or most often to not over eat, I fail. I wonder why? So today I am trying again. This time as mostly it is to not over eat. But I am going to start the day the way the prophet said. I walked 20 minutes. I read my scriptures, said my prayers and this is my journal. I am not hopeless. I will live this day hopeful. If I mess up, I know that I can turn to the Savior, and move on.